the truth is the truth.

hey people,
this is my second post of the day,
I'm just so bored,
don't know what to do,
I'm feeling moody now,
i don't know why,
well, actually i do,
i don't wanna lie to you readers,
but i kinda miss him,
yea,
that dude that broke my heart,
that dude that mean something to me,
i kept on saying that I'll get over him,
but actually i didn't,
there's still some feeling towards him,
i forced myself not to think about him,
but i tried,
and i failed,
i just miss him a lot,
and i kept on wondering how it's like if we're still together now,
he'll be calling me and we're talking on phone,
he'll be knocking my door and call me to play tennis,
he and i will be sitting on the bench quietly,
and it could be the best moment ever,
but,
i sweared to myself that i will not fall for him,
and yes i didn't,
but i miss him a lot,
like i mean A LOT,
more than you could ever think of,
he seems important to me,
i don't know why too,
i can hide it from my heart,
the truth is the truth,
I'm still missing him so badly,
I'm not desperate or anything,
it's just so weird that i still miss him,
after all those stuffs he had done to me,
I'm dumb i know,
i just could not understand why my heart wanna play with me,
my heart is just like fooling me,
and telling everyone I'm over him,
but my mind was actually thinking what was i talking about,
i just don't know what to do,
if i call you now,
i don't think you'll feel a thing,
cause i can see that you're over me,
I'm not scared of loosing you but i miss you,
how weird my feeling is right now,
it's kind of depress,
knowing a person that you miss,
don't even miss you back,
at all times,
i always pretend that we're still in a relationship,
but we're not now,
so there's nothing better to pretend,
now the whether here is sunny,
i want it to rain,
just to add in to my mood now,
and I'll get a bit hyper,
when it rains,
again, weird right?
I'm just so special,
haha,
don't mind me,
I'm just perasaning,
as what I'm always doing,
oh and don't get me wrong,
i still have a little feelings towards him,
and i miss him a lot,
but i will not ask for a relationship again,
I'm not that mindless,
and i don't love him as much i used to anymore,
people,
here's some advise,
don't let go to a person that you cant live without,
they might be the rest of your life,
appreciate every moment when you're with them,
cause when the relationship is gone,
it will never return,
just like me,
and him.
later guys,
bye.