he's in me.

wazzap people,
i went jogging today,
and guess what time i woke up?
i woke up at 6.00,
and that freaks me out,
i never woke up so early before,
i wasn't jogging actually,
i was sitting there,
and wanting to fall asleep,
i have no mood to jog also,
i guess you guys know why,
yeah,
cause of him,
THAT DUDE,
these days i kept thinking about him,
every single time when I'm bored,
he just happens to be in mind,
when i tell myself not to think about him,
automatically,
i started to think about him,
and miss him so badly,
the picture up there,
said never lose hope,
i have no idea why i choose that photo,
i know that me and him are impossible being together again,
i know it's not gonna be me and him anymore,
i also know things between us would not work anymore,
it's gonna be 2 worlds forever,
i hope it wouldn't feel awkward whenever i see you,
i don't know that should i smile to you or ignore you,
I'm just so depress now,
haiz...
haters if you're reading this,
get someone that you love,
that would prevent you from hating others,
i.just.cant.get.him.outta.mah.mind,
why is it so hard?
he's memorable?
he's important?
he's an elephant?
i don't even have the mood to smile or laugh anymore,
see,
he's just,
just,
so,
powerful,
it's like he took everything away,
and left me alone,
wondering how he's life gonna be,
and wondering whose he's gonna be with,
would i be jealous if he have a new girlfriend that's better than me?
i just don't know,
maybe i would?
yeah, i still miss him,
although the percentage being back with him it's only 2%
BTW, i never wanted to couple back,
i just miss you,
for being funny and made me laughed,
i miss your smile,
jokes,
your Philippine accent,
to be honest with you,
i just wanted to couple once,
just to feel how it's like to be loved
by you,
there's no others,
just once,
and there it goes,
and now i miss you,
so badly that ruin my life,
i need to find a doctor to cure this,
a doctor that could teach me how to get over you,
and live on,
hi pei li,
i know you're reading this,
so HI,
i miss you guys too,
hope to see you guys as soon as possible,
not to be awkward,
i shall leave now,
bye.
:)