it's better to smile.

hey people,
i love my blog so much now,
cause shanice helped me to edit it already,
and really, it looks fabulous,
the emo type like mine,
it's just so perfect,
thanks shanice, love you very much!
i don't know why these days i started feeling down,
i just don't know why,
maybe it's because of him?
that left me,
and made me felt that I'm wrong,
i told myself not to fall for him anymore,
but i don't think i can resist every time i see him smile,
i went to the tennis court the other day,
and i saw him playing with his others friends,
i took a deep breath,
and walked into the court and smile to him,
and his friends ask him that if he knows me,
and he smiles to me,
waved his hand and said that
"she was wonderful but i loosed her"
one of his friends told me that,
that's why i know about it,
and that friend started to talk to me ever since,
i have no clue why..0.0
everything happens for a reason,
now i want to know why in a sudden he talked like that,
maybe he wants his face,?
maybe he wants he's honour?
maybe he wants everyone to know he's sorry?
but i had built a bridge,
and now I've already over it,
I'm not heading back,
I'm not gonna make him feel like I'm his anymore,
it's not gonna be me and him anymore,
i cant swear about this,
cause nobody knows what's coming next,
i used to love him that much,
and he's the one who didn't appreciate me,
it's his fault,
not mine,
I'm just an ordinary girl,
that doesn't look back for what she does,
yeah, that's me,
i don't give a shit to you anymore,
i really don't,
but I'm kind,
so I'm gonna treat you as my best friend,
i know you don't deserve it,
but I'm still gonna let you feel that you're important,
just like what we had before our relationship starts,
you know,
those brother and sister,
so next time if you see us,
we MAY be close,
but we have nothing in our relationship,
sometimes best friends works between us,
we're friends,
so like that we don't have to break so many hearts,
it's better like that,
even i don't want to,
i have to,
and i hope you will agree to it too,
me and you,
just best friends,
how unbelievable,
i smiled when i post this,
cause i had taught of a better choice to solve this,
I'm smiling for loosing you,
and although that hurts,
but it's a better choice for me,
to be smiling than crying,
we're best friends starting from next year,
I'll try to forget the past,
and i hope you'll too,
later now,
buh-bye.