i hope i still matter to you.

hey,

don't misunderstand me,
that's not me,
i would never be as lucky as her,
having a BOY holding her,
i promised myself to move on,
I'm afraid i didn't,
i cant lie,
i still have feelings towards him,
although he already have a girlfriend,
but it always pains me to see how close they are,
i didn't want to separate them,
but i have no idea why am i into him now,
i thought i was in love with the cutest boy in my class,
but I dont get why now i'm mentally with him,
i don't get what so special about him,
I'm just so scared that some one's gonna steal your heart,
and fool it away,
i love you,
i still do,
but decisions were made,
and words had spoken clearly,
that we will never be together ever,
again,
it really hurts to know a person you love,
just simply is being with another girl,
that loves him as much as i do,
it's stupid for having this toughts,
he broke my heart and now,
i still fall for him,
it's not the destination that matter,
it's the journey,
i wont 100% love you like those days,
but i will secretly liking you,
for who you are,
i know you are hurt on the day we broke up,
i am too.
i wasn't those understanding person after all,
all i was thinking is hold you tight,
but i think i held you TOO tight,
that made you flew away,
I'm hurting too,
for looking at you guys,
posting love on each others wall,
i hope i still matter to you,
it doesn't matter how much,
i just want to know that i still matter to you,
cause honestly,
in my deep deep heart,
you still matter to me,
and the ending will never come,
i still wish the best for your PMR,
you're amazing,
that's why i love you from yesterday,
today,
and surely tomorrow...<3

P.S you konw who you are, inbox me if i do matter to you,
tell me how you feel about that day and now,
i miss you.