made my decision!!

hey,i made up my mind and if you don't want to see this,then you will keep knowing the wrong information,i want to follow to devil group,and i don't want to join angle!!!!as this is not a secret anymore,cause it seems not a big deal to her this performance!!but it is to me and yet she encourage me not to cry but she is the one who cry...now she is been kicked out and zhi qing want to quit,what group is this now????? we are suppose to be a nice group remember? candy girls?this is our group who else want to break it for no reason not even the girl who ruin my precious life like she think is a JUNK....i don't know how am i suppose to think but now i want to follow devil's group!!!!i don't know how i will be next time and if i done anything bad to you all in future,i hope you 'll forgive me cause i had followed them,obied them....so i cant tell them to quit and sorry to chong hup,cause he is my brother (no relationship) and yet I'd lie to him,i don't know what to do now and i want to be with my friends and them all think i hate them but i am not doing that!!!they just think i am bad and ignore me!!anyway,sorry chong hup i don't really want to do this but I'd false to!!!!really sorry i don't want to do anything to hurts my friends because they are precious to me!!!!and why would i hurt them????and they think i am the one who hate them!!!so confused!!i don't know what am i gonna do right now...I'm afraid i would be a bad girl when i followed them!!but if i don't followed them,they will think I'll hate them and start sending rumors!!!!!really sorry to all including phoebe and Cloe my two best friend,i have to leave you all and start to move on with the bad one!!!if i did anything wrong just forgive me,cause it is like a drug and let me feel like i don't know who i am following,and i will definably change and tomorrow you'll see the different me!!!got to go now,bye~